Happy New Year! I began this year celebrating with a very dear friend their wedding day and to top it off I had the privilege of planning and executing the entire day, and it was magical, the perfect way to start the New Year, doing what I love, and being creative. This year by far has been the most challenging year I have ever experienced in my life. I have witnessed moments I never in a million thought I would encounter, I have hit the bottom, and I survived. I am not perfect, but I have worked to get to where I am and to say I am proud of standing here still surviving, still holding my head up and still providing for and holding my family together is my absolute proudest accompolishment to date. I have never been one to really hold to a New Years resolution, but I do think about the year ahead and what I hope to do and make happen. I'm forever telling myself I am going to make this or that happen, I am going to lose this much or exercise that much. I am going to save this much or that and never really hold myself accountable. This year there are many things I want and intend to do, and I want to hold myself accountable, but I also don't want to set myself up for failure and then be disappointed when I don't reach the finish line. I think in life the only finish line is when we leave this earth, and I have decided that there are so many moments I want to create and so many things I want to do, to list all of those and expect to complete a deadline creates such pressure I no longer want to feel. What I do want to feel is confident in where I am, at peace with what I am doing, and to really focus on being happy! I as a full time working mom and wife have always talked about where and what I want to do, but never really focused on the where and what. My absolute favorite part of all my life is having and raising my four kids, and if I were outside looking in, I would give myself an A+, some semesters I might give myself a B or even a C, but for the most part they are amazing, successful and thrieving. I can't say that so much for myself. Until this moment, this season in my life did I recognize I needed to focus on me and that is what I am making 2021 about. Not just me but finding happiness in where I am and what I do. I will be 55 this year, and I know there are a lot of people,especially women who have never taken the time to find their true happiness because they have worked so hard on everyone elses happiness. DO NOT misinterpret this as I am not happy or regret the first 54 years, because that is absolutely nowhere near what I am saying. My life to this point has been amazing, I just haven't taken the time to really thrive in what I am good at. Again, I am not saying I am not good at what I do, as a matter of fact, I think there are alot of things I think I am pretty awesome at, but there are so many things I LOVE doing and I want to explore those things, narrow down those passions and possibly create opportunities with those things! Who knows where 2021 will take me or you, what I am hoping is that this year is far better than last, that 2021 holds good health and success and that whoever is reading this can find happiness and their passion and have the confidence to make it happen. That is really what I am trying to say, that I hope I can find the confidence to MAKE IT HAPPEN!!!
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